I don't deserve this.
I deserve better.
What did I do to deserve this?
Continual questions flow through my mind. I feel I try so hard to "be good" and "do right." And things continue to go "wrong."
It's not fair!
There's another expression of emotion that comes easily when I don't truly believe God for Who He is.
God is good. I have been taught that. I know that in my head. But do I truly believe it in my heart?
Recently, I had an epiphany of sorts over a familiar verse. I learned to quote this verse as a two-year-old child:
And we know that all things work together for good, to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose. ~ Romans 8:28
Yeah. I've read and quoted that verse so many times. But now I notice that it says, "the called according to His purpose."
I am the called one. The position in which God has placed me in life is for His purpose and ultimately for my good.
God has not maliciously placed me in this position. He has good reasons that I may not know now, but I will know one day. Jesus said:
What I do thou knowest not now, but thou shalt know hereafter. ~ John 13:7
So it is up to me to believe God is Who He says He is!
The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble; and He knoweth them that trust in Him. ~ Nahum 1:7
Knowing God intimately is the privilege of those who trust in Him. If I know and trust that He is good, He becomes my stronghold in the day of trouble.
Countless Scriptures tell me that God is good. That God orchestrates everything in my life. That nothing happens by accident.
The question is: Will I trust in a good God today?
I will trust when I cannot see,
When I'm faced with adversity;
And believe Your will is always best for me,
I will trust when I cannot see.
~ John W. Peterson